As I sit here in bed my mind begins to wander to the day you born…..
I woke up that morning knowing that this was the day I would get to meet my little boy. I was scared …. No I was petrified to undergo surgery and to become a mom. But the moment I heard your cry, heard your weight and your height my life was forever changed. They placed your cheek next to mine and you instantly stopped crying and instantly I began to cry.
We took you home and it was bliss, well for a few hours and then we began weeks of no sleep. We were exhausted, drained, and a bit stir crazy. But every sound you made, every smile you gave us, every cuddle reminded us that you were ours and we would do anything for you.
Then you became more playful, rolling over, playing with toys, watching hockey with your dad. You started eating food and it was like the greatest day of your life we could not get it in there FAST enough!!! Then came the crawling and the walking and the realization I actually liked when you were immobile!!
When you first said Mama, my heart skipped a beat. You looked up at me with your big blue eyes and reached your hands up and simply said “Mama.” In that moment it had really hit me that I am a mom, I had been for a few months but hearing you call me just made it complete reality.
Before I knew it we were at your FIRST birthday. It had been a whole year already. You had accomplished so much in just one short year and you changed my life forever.
Now I sit here and ponder on what the next year will hold for you and all the years after that.
Will you love your first day of school?
When will we wake up one morning to find you in the middle of us?
What sports will you play?
Will you love reading stories every night like I did when I was growing up?
What will you become?
What college will you go to?
Who will you fall in love with?
Who will break your heart?
What tantrums will you have? and what arguments will we have?
Will you always hug me and kiss me the way you do now?
I have no answers to these questions because only God knows the course of your life my boy and that is why I have entrusted you to Him!! So instead of wondering, this is what I pray for you…
I pray that you never give up no matter how hard something may seem.
I pray that you will be a mighty boy, young man and man of God.
I pray that you love even when it hurts.
I pray that you have the wisdom to choose your battles wisely.
I pray you live adventurously and never hold back.
I pray that you are an excellent example of God’s love
and most of all
I pray that you choose to follow God all the days of your life.
My boy I love you more then words can even begin to describe. I will love you at your best and at your worst. I will always be there to cheer you on, to give advice and to have fun with. No matter who you become I will always be your mom and you will always be my boy.
Love Forever, For Always and No Matter What,