Boxing in God

How many of us right now are praying for something?

Anything … It could be about a relationship, a sick family member, a new promotion coming your way, starting a family ….. The list goes on!!!!

Prayer is easy all you have to do is use your words and simply ask God, the hard part is the Faith behind it.

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God wants us to come to Him and talk to Him and build a relationship with Him, but He also requires that we have FAITH in Him. Faith that He will answer our prayers, Faith that He will never give us more then we can handle, Faith that He is in control and he orders everyone of our steps.

Faith is quite literally the basis of being a Christian, we believe and have faith that God is real and alive in us. So why is it when we pray, and ask for an answer or guidance and God responds, we lack Faith in his decision? I mean this is GOD he knows how our life is going to turn out, He knows every hair on our heads and yet we lack Faith that his decision for us is the right one.

If you are like me you wait for a sign some type of confirmation that what God is telling you is real and true. Then you get a sign (God throws you a bone) and you are all excited, then all of a sudden you start doubting and questioning;

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“Was that really a sign….?”

“Did I overthink it? ……. Was it just my mind playing tricks on me?” 

Before you know it you are asking God for another sign and then another sign and the vicious cycle continues. Until finally you miss your moment, you miss your call, you miss your step of Faith!!!

I recently listened to a message about David, and was amazed at how obedient David was to God’s call. He’d ask a question and God would simply say “YES” and David went, no questions, no signs asked for. He had Faith, no he had GREAT faith that God was in control.

David didn’t say to God:

“Give me another sign….”

“I will go if you do this…”

“Are you sure God? That’s not quite what I was asking.” 

David did not box in God. He gave God complete control over his life.

We all need to be more like David. If there is something you are praying about right now and God has given you the answer, and hey I get it sometimes that answer is not the one we wanted or not the easy answer, but obey God and have Faith that this answer is the best one.

Stop asking for signs and start asking for Faith!!! Because before you can start leading others you need to have FAITH that God can lead you. So lets be more like David today, lets lead a life that is guided by GREAT faith provided from our Father.

I am just going to leave you with this one statement:

“Your confirmation is in your obedience to God.”

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Dear Son,

 

As I sit here in bed my mind begins to wander to the day you born…..

I woke up that morning knowing that this was the day I would get to meet my little boy. I was scared …. No I was petrified to undergo surgery and to become a mom. But the moment I heard your cry, heard your weight and your height my life was forever changed. They placed your cheek next to mine and you instantly stopped crying and instantly I began to cry.

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We took you home and it was bliss, well for a few hours and then we began weeks of no sleep. We were exhausted, drained, and a bit stir crazy. But every sound you made, every smile you gave us, every cuddle reminded us that you were ours and we would do anything for you.

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Then you became more playful, rolling over, playing with toys, watching hockey with your dad. You started eating food and it was like the greatest day of your life we could not get it in there FAST enough!!! Then came the crawling and the walking and the realization I actually liked when you were immobile!!

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When you first said Mama, my heart skipped a beat. You looked up at me with your big blue eyes and reached your hands up and simply said “Mama.” In that moment it had really hit me that I am a mom, I had been for a few months but hearing you call me just made it complete reality.

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Before I knew it we were at your FIRST birthday. It had been a whole year already. You had accomplished so much in just one short year and you changed my life forever.

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Now I sit here and ponder on what the next year will hold for you and all the years after that.

I wonder……

Will you love your first day of school?

When will we wake up one morning to find you in the middle of us?

What sports will you play?

Will you love reading stories every night like I did when I was growing up?

What will you become?

What college will you go to?

Who will you fall in love with?

Who will break your heart?

What tantrums will you have? and what arguments will we have?

Will you always hug me and kiss me the way you do now?

I have no answers to these questions because only God knows the course of your life my boy and that is why I have entrusted you to Him!! So instead of wondering, this is what I pray for you…

I pray that you never give up no matter how hard something may seem.

I pray that you will be a mighty boy, young man and man of God.

I pray that you love even when it hurts.

I pray that you have the wisdom to choose your battles wisely.

I pray you live adventurously and never hold back.

I pray that you are an excellent example of God’s love

and most of all

I pray that you choose to follow God all the days of your life.

My boy I love you more then words can even begin to describe. I will love you at your best and at your worst. I will always be there to cheer you on, to give advice and to have fun with. No matter who you become I will always be your mom and you will always be my boy.

 

Love Forever, For Always and No Matter What,

Mom

 

 

Where Are You Christmas?

Almost a week away from the biggest, costliest Holiday of the YEAR!!!!

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Right now most people are :

  1. Last minute shopping
  2. Wrapping ALL those gifts (and your thinking why did I get so much?)
  3. Preparing the menu for Christmas Eve and Christmas (cooking for an army)
  4. Attending all those Christmas Parties (and eating more then we should)
  5. Sending out those cute family Christmas cards (they weren’t so cute trying to take them!)
  6. Counting down the days till you have an extra day off from work. (YES!!!!!!)

We all know the sayings as they go,

“Jesus is the Reason for the season!!”

or

“Put Christ back in Christmas!!”

These are wonderful sayings, but they don’t mean much without the action behind.

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Most of us have accepted Christmas as the worldly holiday it has become.

  • Who can get the most gifts?
  • Who’s house is decorated the nicest?
  • How much many can I get this Christmas?
  • Iphone, Ipad ……. I EVERYTHING!!!! (I think apple is onto something!)

Christmas is no longer about family and friends and that our Savior was born on this day. Its become a money hungry holiday. But we don’t have to make it this kind of holiday, we can restore Christmas back to its real meaning.

What is the real meaning??

(I am no Theologian, Philosopher, Author, or a Licensed Pastor, so don’t take my answer as though I am one of these. I am simply a Christ loving and fearing women.)

The day Jesus was born was the day Heaven came down to restore our broken world, and we were SAVED. Yes, Jesus’ death and resurrection are what saved us, but the day He entered this world set that all in motion!

So the meaning of Christmas to me is when Jesus saved us!!!!

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I challenge you all this Christmas season to REALLY put Christ back into Christmas!!!

Let’s remind our Children why we celebrate Christmas.

Let’s be thankful for the blessings we have in our lives.

Let’s give back and volunteer our time to help others who are less fortunate then we are.

Let’s tell our family and friends how much we love them.

Let’s go back to church.

And most of all let’s thank God for coming into this world to save us!

Its a simple challenge, all it requires is a couple words and a few actions, but it will go a long way.  No matter what Continent, Country, Region, State or Town you are in my prayer is the same that you and yours have a very blessed and Merry Christmas!!!!

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The Dark Place

As a child most of us were probably scared of the dark. Hey let’s be honest even as adults we are sometimes frightened by the dark.

But what is it exactly that scares us so much about the dark?

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Its not the actual darkness that scares us, its what we believe lives there. Children believe its the boogeyman, ghosts or some other scary creature that lurks in the night and under their beds. For adults it very well could be the same or a burglar, murderer something or someone evil.

Have you noticed the pattern here? Dark = Evil.

Darkness tends to bring out our worst fears, the most irrational scenarios you can think of play out in our heads and terrify us.

Have you been to that Dark Place? I have and not so long ago.

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I have had struggles and tough times just like any other person. I’ve gone through loss, heartaches, pain and sadness at all different points of my life. But my Darkest Place was this past year.

This was my first year being a mom, now I know I can already hear the murmurs of  “you became a mom how could this possibly lead you to your darkest place?” I asked myself the same question too. But the endless nights of no sleep that led to exhaustion and a crying baby that led to frustration paved the way.

I was prepared for my delivery, but not a c-section. I was prepared to be healed up and ready to go in a week, but not for it to take 3- 4 months. And lets be honest you are never fully prepared to become a parent!!! The one thing that I never prepared for, never took into account was the area that the enemy attacked. My emotional/mental state.

Now I am going to be 100% percent real and authentic here. I love my son with my whole being but I really struggled the first couple months. I would cry constantly, out of no where. And it was not a pretty cry, it was an uncontrollable, unending cry. I wasn’t eating much, not sleeping (and not simply because I had a newborn), had some health complications due to pregnancy and the c-section, and at some point I kind of just shut down completely.  I did not want to move, get out of bed or even out of the house. I was BROKEN.

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This affected all areas of my life, my marriage, my faith and my self worth. I had a weakness in one area and the enemy attacked in a brutal way, I really thought this was it, this was my life now …. just this Dark Place.

I was worthless.

I wasn’t a good mom, my son could do better.

My husband deserved a better wife.

I should be back to my normal body weight like all these other women.

I can’t do anything right.

These were all the things, and more that would reek havoc in my head.

But one day in the midst of the dark that was invading me, I felt something I hadn’t in a while, Hope. With that hope came the light that broke the darkness. I can’t sit here and tell you it was this one profound thing that changed everything for me, because it was a bunch of little things.

It was…

The way me son smiled at me and made me realize I am a good mom!

The way my husband looked at me and I knew by his look he loved me for me!

The way God showed me grace even when I had lost my faith in Him!

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Darkness is powerful, terrifying and paralyzing. But it has a weakness and a way to be defeated, LIGHT!!!!! Nothing can defeat the light!!!!!!!

I am proud of the women, wife, mother, daughter, friend that I am, and still have yet to become. I know I will have tough times and life will not always be easy or fun. But I won’t let those Dark Places ruin me. I will always have the Light, I will always have my God to guide me through and lead me out to be a much stronger mighty women then I was before.

So if you are in that dark place, just HOLD ON!!! The light is coming!!!

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TGIF ….. NOT, i’m a mom !!!!

Friday, the best day of the week. For most people the work week has concluded, no alarm clocks to set, no deadlines to meet. We put our stresses of the work week on the back burner to enjoy a relaxing, fun and peaceful weekend.

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But for all you momma’s out there you know as well as I do our weekends no longer look quite the same. They generally consist of early morning wake up calls, trying to catch up on laundry and cleaning the house, trying to keep our kiddos entertained, making a to do list for the week ahead, making breakfast, lunch and dinner, grocery shopping and at this time of year holiday shopping and holiday baking. And somewhere in the midst of all that we try to find time to shower and actually look somewhat human.

My weekends sometimes are more stressful and more hectic then the rest of the week. I know its probably sad to say but I don’t always look forward to the weekends. Sunday’s, on the other hand is the day I countdown to every week.

Sunday’s are the day I get to do what I love and that’s leading worship and having “my time” with God. When I worship, its my way of having a conversation with God. Recently God hit me hard with a “Let’s get Real” truth. I heard Him clearly say to me

“Larissa, you worship me with such joy and love on Sunday’s. But where do you put me the rest of the week?”

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I was so taken aback, and I didn’t have answer. But God was 100% right I worshiped him with my all on Sunday’s but the rest of the week I got lazy. I let the stresses of life become an excuse to not put God first, no matter what the day is.

In that moment I asked God to give me the strength and grace for everyday of the week, for every season of my life. And I promised to praise Him everyday no matter how exhausted, crabby or stressed I am. Grace abounds for those who seek it and I seek to be a mother full of grace and a wife full of grace and to have a ministry that is full of grace. But it only begins when I praise my Father who gives me that grace.

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